An Open Letter....

So, in a previous post, I mentioned there was something on my mind that I wasn't saying that was clouding my ability to blog. Well, in the best interest of this blog and its readers - upon 50% careful consideration and 50% blogging whilst emotional, I have decided to, in the words of John Mayer, 'say what I need to say' for cathartic reasons.  In the spirit of 'stuff white chicks do on facebook', yes, you can assume that post is directed at one specific individual.  You are also welcome to judge me for handling this in the form of a blog post (as opposed to a phone call, personal email, etc.).  Anyhow.

Without any further ado....

I honestly still cannot believe you did this to me.   I am still angry.  I am still in shock.  And I am still hurt. Don't get me wrong - I am doing fine.  I am doing well.  But you wronged me and you hurt me and you know it.  If you think I've forgotten you or if you think I've forgotten what you did to me, you are surely wrong.   If you think I am somehow confused and that I think there is possibly some misunderstanding that leads to some acceptable explanation of your behavior, you are also wrong.

I was good to you.  I deserved better.  I would not have done this to anyone - I surely would have not done this to you.  If the end goal was to make me hate you or make me think you are a bad person - you have not succeeded at this, however, again, you have succeeded at hurting me.  And if you possibly think, for one second, that you are, in some way, off the hook for what you did - you are wrong.  I cannot believe you were so selfish that you didn't think twice about causing me pain because you felt, for whatever reason, that you needed to do so at this time in your life.  So, if you have a conscience, or if you have any consideration for anyone for anyone but yourself, let it be known that you should feel guilty for what you did to me every single day of your life.

I might be out of sight.  I might be out of mind.  You are welcome to be a coward and hide - that doesn't undo the wrong you have done to me.  I don't wish ill on you but I do sincerely believe you should feel terrible about yourself as a person for what you did to me (and to some others as well).  I am a decent person and I am disgusted by what I got from you in the end.  Both you and I know I deserved better.  Again, I don't hate you, and I surely will go on just fine in life, but let it be known that what you did to me will never be forgotten.  I am very confident that you are so vain that you will definitely know this post is about you.

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Again, dear readers, go ahead and judge me for posting this (juvenile, emotional, passive aggressive, what have you) - it felt good for me to get this off my chest.   Now, on to some other posts.

It Happened....

Anonymous has left a new comment on your post "Puzzling Thought": 

ummm, is this about me?? 



Carly Simon Syndrome.





I tried to find the original actual video, but it's just waaaay too weird.  But seriously, Carly, this song clearly stood the test of time.  

You Probably Think This Post is About you....

In the past 24 hours, I have randomly heard the song 'You're So Vain' at a public place TWICE. Since this song has been referenced on this blog, my blog naturally thinks this occurrence is about it.

Moment of silence for Carly Simon for becoming muzak....

Don't You?

So, I was reading an article in Glamour (which I referenced earlier) about should you/should you not do something. One of the items brought up - should one blog about the person he or she is dating (or going on a date with).

Now, for me personally, the answer is no for one obvious reason - the guy I'm dating NOT reading my blog is a complete and total deal-breaker. So, if it's safe to assume he's reading, I won't be writing about him. Anyhthing I need to say to him I should, in a perfect world, be able to say directly to him (if it pertains to our companionship), however, anything I can't say, for whatever reason, I would talk to my girlfriends about privately, not air out in public.

I've always hate hate HATED it when couples have had statements blatantly expressing their frustration (or what have you) with their significant other via their facebook status, AIM away message or (going back to high school here now) AOL profile. It's some childish combination of a) passion without reason and b) a public advertisement of the bad communication between the two. As I said earlier - such things should be said TO each other, not about each other to the whole online world.

That, and it just looks pathetic. For example, I have three female facebook friends (people I am not regularly in touch with who are no more than acquaintances) who I know are not-so-subtly hinting that they're getting a little frustrated that their boyfriend hasn't proposed yet. Why do I (amongst all their other fbook friends) know this? I've never met said boyfriend. But I know he's got commitment issues (or so it seems). What's the goal here? That some mutual friend of a friend of a friend says something to someone and it gets back to him, and he thinks 'oh gee, I should propose', then does so? Will it REALLY work out that way?

However. The argument in favor of blogging about one's relationship was this: The Carly Simon rule applies - the post isn't about him unless he's vain enough to think it is. I like this. I'm tempted to post about every guy I've ever come across since 6th grade right now and save face by declaring 'The Carly Simon Rule'. Sidenote: I'm pretty sure I know who that song is about. Anyone out there think I'm referring to him? See above....